.: Ping :. ♥

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2011-01-23T00:04:00.001+08:00

Same sh*t happened, except it's worse than before. I'm sorry

thank you

2010-04-24T12:42:00.000+08:00

I saw the pictures.

i'd like to express my gratitude to those who prepared such an event for him.

im glad he was not alone, no longer alone - he really is such a lucky guy to have such supportive friends like you guys.

what could i say more? when you lose something, definitely you'll get something in return..

isn't this what you long for?

you've got them - sales, car, friends, and life, is only a matter of time, you'll meet someone new.

it's time to bid farewell, take care, J.

2010.04.13 Moved

2010-04-13T17:32:00.003+08:00

moved :

dolceping.blogspot.com

^^

2010.04.11

2010-04-11T22:36:00.000+08:00

Watched them:

Being Human Being - from Singapore Jack Neoh.

Funny as it used to be, recommended if you want a good laugh XD

Dad enjoyed this movie so so much, he was laughing all the way. Im glad he enjoyed the movie, oh yes, i paid for it : ) it's really a warm feeling to go for a movie with those that you really care for.. when er jie is back, we'll go for movies again..

Clash of the Titans - not 3D.

before i watched this, a friend commented it's like the "Lightning Thief", i was wondering how can it be possible..

oh well, until i sat there for almost 2 hours, my opinion is, there're similarities of these 2 movies - the characters - on the ancient gods - Zeus, Hades, you name it.

Action movie, my comments - so so only.

I want to sing this:

我受够了等待你所谓的安排
说的未来到底多久才来
总是要来不及才知道我可爱
我想依赖而你却都不在
应该开心的地带你给的全是空白
一个人假日发呆找不到人陪我看海
我在幸福的门外却一直都进不来
你累积给的伤害我是真的很难释怀
终于看开爱回不来而你总是太晚明白

你总是要我乖慢慢计划将来
我的眼泪却一直掉下来
过去怎麽交代你该给的信赖
被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖
从我脸上的苍白看到记忆慢下来
过去甜蜜在倒带只是感觉已经不在
而我对你的期待被你一次次摔坏
已经碎成太多块要怎麽拼凑跟重来

Sigh i would say, but it's time for me to move on..
No looking back, as it's only holding you back.
Stay strong , stay tough, for you'll be a better person in time

2010.04.09 Friday

2010-04-09T16:53:00.000+08:00

This morning when i was dropping my mum off to her appointment, i heard OneFM saying : it's friday today, a few hours to go, can go party - so cheer up yo!
I played around with it as I too agree that friday should really be a relaxing day, after all those hectic monday - thursday work load (oh well, i know, doesn't applicable to me because i'm a super free person ).

Then, mum was shocked, she looked at me, she asked: Da Jieh, you go party nowadays ar?
I was like: !!, ermm.... in a very soft voice, i said : yes.....

okay, i hope she just stop her questions there.. and yes, my wish came true. no more further questions.

Yes, i will go crazy a little for awhile, need to get rid of those long burried emotions.
arrr... just let me be reckless for awhile..

A song caught my attention, the lyrics:
仅存的一点点骄傲
华丽的外表终于丢掉
很彷徨很孤单是寂寞或
悲惨一个人该怎么办

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上一片无
声黑暗心痛的大声呼喊
我想我没那么坚强每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象哭吧

and of all the things 人心肉做 - no longer applicable

2010.04.05

2010-04-05T23:53:00.001+08:00

你是第一个发现我
越面无表情越是心里难过
所以当我不肯落泪地颤抖
你会心疼的抱我在胸口
你比谁都还了解我
内心的渴望比表面来得多

真的，你真的最了解我。可是，为何不牵起我的手？

2010.04.03 The Hoegaarden Night

2010-04-04T23:08:00.001+08:00

Had a fun-filled steamboat dinner with my gang, talking a lot, teasing a lot and of course, we know deep down inside, we care for each other a lot : )

Then, my 1st stop for hoegaarden @ the library , managed to reach there before 11pm and ordered for the promotion : but 1 free 1/2 pint!
each of us have 1.5 pint, then, i started singing: i gotta feeling , woo hoo..

As the dear gf is tired, the caring bf decided to call it of for the day, i received sms inviting me out.
Well, i'm lucky enough to have another round of drinking session - and guess what - is hoegaarden again! yay - it just taste so good, you wouldn't feel like you're drinking beer!

My next stop: TTDI plaza in which i didn't bother to check what's the bar name. I took another 1 pint, and woops! it's really more than just feelings...

Another fortunate thing, i did not just break down, and weep in front of my caring friend.. managed to remain strong and steady.

Well, enough said, cheers to Hoegaarden!

2010.04.01

2010-04-01T16:48:00.000+08:00

Im watching this now.. finally.

there's one phrase that caught my attention:

‘我终于找到一个为我流泪，为我心跳的人。。’

then, i heard this on the radio:

末日前夕请留在我怀里
看太阳暗去, 月光失明
我只想牵你的指尖绕地球最后一圈

在这世界最眷恋的事情就是曾拥抱你

how i wish someone would have regard me as de most important person in this world.. oh yes, i know i'm = dreaming =.

Today, he sat just next to me, i tried to find some topics to talk about. For quite awhile, i remained silence as i'm not sure why i have nothing to say... i felt like i don't know him that well anymore..

2010.03.29 Dragon in 3D

2010-03-29T23:33:00.001+08:00

thumbs up - l♥ve the movie - l♥ve the stories - and i definitely l♥ve your company -

2010.03.22

2010-03-22T18:01:00.000+08:00

If ever, you think that i'm worth your effort to change.. just look back, i'll be waiting just right here..

Btw, happy birthday to Mabel and Su Hsien.

2010.03.19

2010-03-19T18:00:00.001+08:00

It's just another lie.. how could i ever believed that what you told me is real..
silly me.. really, i make a fool of myself.. gosh

2010.03.12

2010-03-12T18:38:00.000+08:00

I want to say that I'm sorry, i wont be around on your birthday...

sorry.

2010.03.10 eclipse

2010-03-10T11:48:00.001+08:00

" Dont apologize, " he said, smiling just a little. " No need to be afraid to tell me how you feel, Bella. If this is what you need ... " He shrugged. " You are my first priority."

I stunned and remained silence for a long time, " you are my first priority ". I once heard that phrase, intended to me, however, ... .Unfortunately..

2010.03.08

2010-03-08T12:26:00.004+08:00

没那麽简单就能找到聊得来的伴
尤其是在看过了那麽多的背叛
总是不安只好强悍

没那麽简单就能去爱别的全不看
变得实际也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单一久也习惯
不用担心谁也不用被谁管

别人说的话听一听然后自己作决定

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外题：
三八妇女节，中国的朋友说: 今天三八妇女节，有许多人都那假去了。
Hmm.. 8th March - what's so special about today? A reason to get away from work?

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Some told me to be patience, after all,

" rome was not build in a day and sometimes wait is the pain side of glory "

What has to come has to come, no point avoiding, nor waiting for miracles or changes...
Wait, is not what i believed in.

2010.03.01

2010-03-01T22:48:00.001+08:00

总有一天，我会找到我的伯乐。
But, before that, i'll just be patience and wait for my wings to grow stronger, and then..

of course, you'll need to learn how to fall before you learn how to
F L Y

2010.02.23 at work

2010-02-23T12:20:00.000+08:00

I asked to be allowed to join in the order planning, and yes, was invited into the discussion. I was so delighted when you mentioned you'll include me in in the future as it's time for me to learn.

It was just 2 weeks since the last time I sit in and before office starts to operate again. Yes, you've started planning your stock, orders.. but i was sitting at the corner peeking on what you guys are talking about. " never mind" I tell myself, perhaps they're very busy to include someone new in.

As days go on, I see the discussion went on without me. Oh well, I'm utterly disappointed.

Oh yes, disappointed.

2010.02.15

2010-02-15T09:30:00.000+08:00

Post valentine's day. nothing happened on valentine's day.

But, i enjoyed myself very much on CNY Chor Yat!

good food, good company and family + relatives, laughters + black jack - what could be better than that?

something interesting - i saw a lady holding a bouquet of flowers coming in from the main door. Nice flowers - 99 roses and all her relatives went up and say: congrats!

I'm still blur on what's going on - until i heard: when are you going to invite us. " next year" is the answer. ohw, the boyfriend proposed - ar, i can see that flush showing on her sweet darling face that shouts: im going to get married soon! then, followed by the crowd looking at her proposal ring, " how many carats?" " colour - F, carats - im not sure". The one that was sitting far far away can still see that Stone shining away.. hmm - at least 1.5 or 2 ?

oh well, i hope to see more good news coming up - to my dear girlfriends, mind if i ask: "when's ur turn ar?"

hahahahaha

2010.02.13

2010-02-13T00:26:00.000+08:00

i know - things must have changed - or else it wouldn't be like that.

it does not require a genius to write a report what, how and why this had happened.

is okay - is alright - i got something that you don't like.

well, as i told my friend, what could be worst, right?

currently listening this:

不喜歡懷疑什麼　並不表示我沒有感受
看你微妙的變化　慢慢不同
我不是生氣　　只是心痛
最討厭被誤會了　但越解釋越覺得難過

這樣相信所以深呼吸著割捨
愛是為了擁抱　　為了牽手　
不是為了爭吵　　為了調頭

記憶有限　　　所以它會淘汰壞的
失眠聽歌　　　想念雖然苦澀
還是謝謝你讓我長大了

but im glad, i still my friends and family with me, and they're very supportive : )

oh, Happy birthday to Mummy!

2010.02.09

2010-02-09T00:20:00.000+08:00

who says quitting is the easiest way? who says giving up is simple?
who would opt for giving up and walk away if there's a better road to take?

i admire those who has the strength to hold on to what they believe in
i look up to those that insist on going through sh*ts and hell to get things done
i am inspired from those who took extra steps in order to achieve their goals

but,
not in relationships, the one who still believe that the partner can be depend on, when it's the "N" times that he cheated
not to those who just say : " it's hard, i can't do it " without trying
not to those who sits there doing nothing and yell: i've done my best

knowing when to make a left/right turn is not entirely a bad decision
when you look back, who can tell if the untaken road in entirely good/bad?

again, you live by your own ruler, why bother

closing down

2010-02-06T17:20:00.002+08:00

Closing down - for good - for the reason to have this blog is no longer there.. is alright
let me view your blog more often then :)

MIA - 20/1 - 25/1

2010-01-26T13:42:00.000+08:00

went floating/ wandering for quite a few days.. as in not updating .. will be back soon ; )

Feel the love ~ in the air

2010-01-14T23:39:00.001+08:00

I dunno why it took me so long to discover this song..

It become one of my favourites now, one of the must 'listen' song every morning.

Then, i went online to check out the lyrics, wow - the first few phrase alone melts me ~

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought hey
You know this could be something

'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing

then, this little girl, make up such a cute video , and it fit perfectly into the music

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=otwLLAPTBjc

feel the love ~

BMW

2010-01-07T17:34:00.000+08:00

well - BMW - Bavarian motor works!

in SMKCheras - BMW - big mouth woman - wonder who came out with these nicknames -.-'''

then, one of my audit friend - BMW = bring more worries.. - hmm, sounds like it, bigger car, bigger liability

J's friend said: Bring more Woman, Bring more Wealth..

then suddenly the sweetest words J uttered: BMW also stands for Be My Wife..

i looked at him, quite stunned, i smiled : )

Bye Bye 2009

2010-01-06T16:03:00.000+08:00

Xmas's eve dinner - x good - but i enjoyed J's company so much ^^

New Year Eve - no party, no countdown, only a good night sleep with my pal , sorry, simply put " pal " coz it rhyme . Anyway, the minute the clock struck 12.01am - it's Angel's 19th birthday! heh, i really hope she like the gift we bought for her.. and i hope it works! :)

Bought BB cream from TW, didn't believe in BB cream at this while until i tried it myself.

I apply BB cream after Benefit primer and the coverage is good. So different from liquid foundation, BB cream is definitely worth a try : )
Talking about make up, i can't really apply those beautiful coloured eye shadow coz i'm " eye shallow" .
T_T so easily .. jia lat

17th - 20th Dec 2009

2009-12-20T21:21:00.002+08:00

Few asked me: what makes u cut your hair?

My reply is a story rather than 1 sentence reply.
here it goes:

i read from a magazine " Self " from china, very good magazine that telling readers on self enriching, from fashion sense to ethics at work, oh well, couldn't find it in Malaysia book store. :(
okay, back, sorry for diverting.

it was stated there, have a neat and tidy hair at work so that you are 'seem' to be professionals. ever wonder most professionals or business women have short hair? because it gives them a more ' career minded' look.
i was of course convinced by this statement.

not only i want to be viewed as a professional, but also to stand out and take on further on my career. And so i thought, why not have a short hair instead of the long lifeless hair.. just take it for a change..

ta daa.. yes, i did :)

Saturday, J brought me to Food Fair 2009 @ PWTC, there, we saw Lai Meng - the female acrtress - so we took a photo with her :)

Celebrated Lum's birthday ^^ and lunch with the gang .
Check on facebook after 2 days of not logging into it. Saw my friend's photo that she tagged all jazzie group with remarks: All in
i was like.. where am i ? seems like i was being left out.. :( sad, of course i am.

oh well, no need to say much now.. it was darn obvious right? who's the real friend and who's not..

but im totally relief now that i finish all 3 papers of rubber technology, hopefully, it's an ALL passed result :)

chop clubbing @ my face?

2009-12-12T13:35:00.000+08:00

I went to badminton session after kota kemuning's open house (enjoyable gathering with cheras school mates :)

then, here comes the interesting question:

" tomorrow holiday wor, going quattro tonight ar? "

i was like -.-''', no.. not really.. in fact, im going to rest early, pretty tired after a whole week of tight schedule.

i said : no lar.. going home

are you sure, later if i go quattro, dont let me see you ah..

again.. >.<, my face has a ' clubbing chop' ?

@ 11pm, leaving the court, they asked again:

so, go home so early, not joining us for tea?

i said : no, going back, tired.

go home so early to prepared to club ar?

i replied: yea, see u there @ 12 mid-night.

then, everyone is satisfied with my answer...

Did i give everyone an impression that i'm so addicted to clubbing ? LeePing looks like she does club alot?

J @ 2007

2009-12-06T23:07:00.000+08:00

this is the person that i first fall for, when he's like that *wink*

things change and time flies...

ops! un-hidden

2009-12-03T15:03:00.000+08:00

It was quite sometime before i come to my own page - surprisingly - someone found me!!

Bow and Sasa, ironically, i find it funny when i feel excited that someone found this page.. it's " supposed" to be hidden..

well, now guess i do not have much choice but to constantly update my blog now?

have to be more hardworking d =)

end of 24th, begining of 25th

2009-10-22T16:30:00.005+08:00

an un-blowned cake, unwanted bouquet of flowers, and being left alone.. this is how i end my birthday night with.. pity me? no.. i guess this is what i get back on my face for what i've done. never thought that it'll end up like this. We still planned to go up the hill and put up a night and have a romantic and expensive dinner on that day itself..

so, what can be said now? what can be done now? other than picking myself up and tell myself be tough, i guess these 2 should be in my priority list right?

i still rememer how u tell me that

" yea, i know that we're not suitable for each other long time ago.. "

oh dear... is this how my 25th year will begin??

muruku's weekend

2009-10-19T00:05:00.004+08:00

am tired - want to zzz. but the dragon@ CA is flying away within hours, i can't let it happen. or else, the attacks, effort and esp time put in will be all go wasted. i must stay awake to make sure the dragon will be dead.

i bought a book today (oh well chinese book) coz it's cheaper compared to main stream english books that you can find in bookstores. Those names are being translated (to me , is manipulated) to weird & funny chinese names. ar , so hard to get the names right. Title of the Book = Currency War 2. hmm.. i wonder when will i finish reading that book - Robert Kiyosaki's real estate is still looking at me with a painful smile ..

oh well, i think i'll just go back to him. After all those nasty things that i've done to him, he still can put up with me. I think, it's enough for him to go through the whole bad bad, unhappy week.

he's in meeting now i assumed, and that's what he told me. hmm, better not to suspect that much...

muruku's day! happy deepavali! i shopped (!!!) @ jusco member's day special.. now, offiically broke. there it goes my savings - minus 8.5K =(

looking forward to have chocolate cheese cake next week ^^
ciaoz

i'm sorry

2009-10-15T23:45:00.003+08:00

i threw a horrible word to the driver who purposely picked me up to & from badminton.. yes, horrible, coz i felt really bad after i enter the house.. im sorry...

you see, i think i perfectly right to say that you only bring unhappy memories to me. before 9pm, i was happy (rather happy) that i get to go home early tonight and oh yes! i bought my self a new handbag - yea - a pricey one :=)

after what happened, i then realised, i have no one to share my happy thoughts with.. whether im sad, angry, happy or excited, i can keep them to myself.. thus, i come out with one thing :

happiness = happy event + someone to share - worries

still, i felt really bad for saying that. I'm sorry.

an unexpected black fit

2009-10-13T23:45:00.001+08:00

i thought it'll be an boring night with me playing fb + castle age for the whole day.. was missing CA and hoping to do as much attacks as i can when i have the chance to..

well, have a great dinner with Uncle Susu & Mum @ Wah Lok, Carlton near Bugis. too bad i didn't photo these nice moments.. wasted..

got my hair washed, by a malacca guy working @ Fortune Plaza, who asked a few questions bout me, in which i didn't answer all.. as my 'boss' was there, she wouldn't be happy if i tell outsiders too much about ourselves, especially we're on the road on our only..

the unexpected black fit knock on my msn today.. i was thinking before i click the window to open the chat box, can it be the badminton ? change of venue or time? oh well, after a few careful Q & A, arr.. he was actually wanting to know how i am, and asking me how i was! surprised, surprised.. the fit @ black, u didn't know, i felt a slight guilt for what i've done..

i got to say sorry to ppppp @ blogspot as well, sorry that you'll remain silent & hidden from the public's eyes. sorry that you shouldn't be made known to every other person except for those who actually cares for me and put the effort to find out more about me..

till then, let see what'll happened tomorrow.. tml is the 14th!!

dull & down

2009-10-13T00:02:00.003+08:00

i look at you, wondering what to pen down, for a long long while,
still i couldn't, find the perfect word, to explain why i frown,

lonely, desperately, there i found,
myself alone in the lost love farm,
whether to drop a tear or to squeeze a smile,
i think you're the best to tell.

why do you say we can work this out
but ne-yo's song asking how can this be worked out
now you're asking for 1 last chance
but didn't you think when i shout
telling you not to break my heart

50 years have again popped up
i say 2 and half years is already up
tired and fed up is how i felt
2 days requested to reconcile
i say not even 2 hours i want to spend to sulk

so, let me tell you this out loud
nothing's gonna change my love for thou
only you have the power to ask to get out
and there, you did a good job that makes me proud

to love you doesn't mean to keep you with me all the while,
but to really understand what is most desirable and better for both of us
if ever one day you'll this post, i hope you'll understand by then,
why did i just give up

**~ sometimes love comes around, and when love knock you down, you just get back up and let love play it down ~ **

Ring, flowers , updates

2009-10-04T19:35:00.003+08:00

facebook is a place where you share everything and disclose everything. yea everything.. once tagged, basically you're gone.. =p unless you dont own a facebook account.

for the past 6 months, i saw photos uploaded by friends and family that the boyfriend/ guy proposed!! wedding/ rom photos keep appearing in my photo list.. i am of course happy for each and everyone of them..

just that, when i think bout myself, how far am i from that special occasion/ day? i smile, no one knows, only god knows when and why..

nevertheless, my sincere wishes and congratz to those who vow to hold on to their partner's hands until " death do us part ".

suddenly a phrase appear : 50 years is too little.. well, yea.. i wish to have more than 50 years of time to be spend with you..

yea, you ..

The last phrase

2009-10-01T12:05:00.003+08:00

The last phrase that was not sang out in my heart, that i keep on whispering to you and my self:

~ I want you to stay here with me ~

Talk to me

2009-09-29T23:48:00.000+08:00

Talk to me ~ speak with me
Don't sink before you rise baby
Don't , don't fade away ~

You hesitate, You seem to wait
For all the time we had ~Feels like it's never going to be okay

If you walk out now, I don't know if we could be the same

The memories, The things we did
I locked inside my heart, Where i know i won't forget..

There'll be that one day, when everything have passed,
I'll look for you with a smile on that chubby face.. maybe, one day